Finding Dana
WARNING: Totally DRAMARAMATIC and DEEP. Proceed with a lifevest.
Jeepney
"Para!", ang lumabas sa bibig ng isang pasahero
ng jeepney na walang may alam kung saan patungo.
"Bayad po, manong", sabay inabot ang pera
sa mamang drayber na tila ang mukha ay nabura.
"Para!" ay ang kanyang paulit-ulit na isinigaw,
ngunit ang jeepney ay patuloy parin sa pag-galaw.
Lumingon s’ya sa mga katabi n’yang pasahero,
kanyang mga mata’y wari sumisigaw ng "Saklolo!".
Ngunit ang mga kasama, sa kanya’y ayaw tumingin.
Kaya’t siya’y dumungaw sa bintana at sumigaw sa hangin,
"Tulungan n’yo ako!", ang patuloy n’yang iniiyak.
Kanyang mga luha ay walang patid sa pagpatak.
"Para! Ibaba n’yo na po ako. Parang awa n’yo na!",
nagmamakaawang pakiusap na lunod na sa luha.
Unti-unting humina ang pag-ikot ng mga gulong.
Mga kasamang pasahero, sa kanya ay bumulong,
"Tapos na ang lahat. Masaya ka na ba ngayon?
Nakuha mo na ang gusto mo sa tamang panahon."
"Ano ang ibig ninyong sabihin?", tinanong niya.
"Hanapin mo sa’yong sarili." ay ang tanging sagot nila.
For the past few years, I’ve forgotten who I am… Or maybe I’ve never really known who I really am to begin with. Either way, I have been mindlessly wandering. Forever dreaming. Waiting. Wanting. Not that I was unhappy (People who know me, know that this is highly improbable. Haha.), I was just simply lost.
And although being figuratively lost could be just as fun as being physically lost, as you get to see the sights, you get to hear the sounds, and you get to feel all things new, refreshing, and exhilirating, being perpetually lost is not a state that one should aspire to be in.
Since the beginning of the year, I’ve had this feeling that this year is going to be great. That this year is going to be the year that I will be found. Yes, one of these days, one of these ordinary and mundane days, the kind of days that seem like nothing special will happen, I will be found. And just as one of the customer service officers at work had once written in the lost and found report, I will also be: "Returned to LOSER"
Ehek.
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